Happy Birthday Rick

Happy birthday my friend. Yes, my friend - even though he said it with love... it stung. "You are all talk and no action." My first response... "well, I'll show you!" He enthusiastically replied with "GOOD!".
Yes, I suppose I have been a lot of action - less talk lately... I live in my head, and such a glorious life I live inside there. The place is beautiful - rolling hills, speckled with trees, and a view of my private beach from my studio window. I walk a short walk to my studio every morning from my cozy little home decorated in Nantucket style.... people - where are all the people? god, I need people... Not regular people though, I need people who are creative, artistic, supportive, and who are NOT dependent on me to make their life worth living. I need people who encourage me to be free to be me, not people who stifle my growth.
I suppose I could take back control, own who I am, (but who am I?). I suppose I could stand up for myself - face the fear of hurting others, and be okay with the disappointment I witness on the faces of the ones who claim to love me. I suppose I could do all this - but for now... I committed to creating a blog. A private blog... where I can be free to be me... and be what may.